Weightloss Affirmation #1
Lack of Confidence in myself or insecurities and confusion of rather I'm beautiful just as I am has nothing to do with my weightloss journey. To be healthy, happy and in control of my well being has everything to do with my goal to change. Simply put, I just want a healthier life and to know that I have full control over every aspect of my life.
At the end of July I was preparing to go to a tent revival where my stepfather was ministering and I got dressed and happen to look in the mirror at myself and I did not like the woman I saw in that mirror... Her face was swollen, her arms were huge and her ankles had been swelling do to high blood pressure, I had my younger sister take a picture of me that day and I said to myself this is the last time you will allow yourself to fall victim to your situations and find comfort in food. I begin to think about my, at the time partially, completed book entitled "Finish Happy" and I said to myself hmmm, the title of this book would be a lie if did not gain control over my eating... It was at that moment I had a moment of truth with myself.
You are Not healthy
You are an emotional eater
You are hiding your beauty underneath fat
You are at risk of High blood Pressure, diabetes, heart complications etc.
you are slowly killing yourself
If I can tell a untold truth, and (I speak more about this in my book) food became my bestfriend, I would secretly eat until I was so full and I begin to feel sick.
The Bible says, “If you find honey, eat just enough–too much of it, and you will vomit” (Proverbs 25:16).
Eating becomes a psychological as well as spiritual warfare for example, overeating is turning to food for help instead of seeking God and for provision. The Bible says, "My God shall meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:19), so let me make this personal, My name is Robin LaShelle, and I am a ex-emotional eater that worship food and denied the power of the God I claimed to love. Why do i say that? Because every time a problem rolled around, I ran to food. Mentally I believed that soda would make me feel better, the crunching of the potato chips would drown out the worries in my head, the fried foods would help me get over the lost of my baby, the cookies would ease the pain of disappointment, Snickers would get me through the rough day that I never thought would end. Did I verbally speak these things? No I didn't, but actions speak louder than words and you know what? My actions depicted, I had an addiction to food. I looked to food to meet my needs and it became more and more important to me until it became compulsive, it became an idol, a false god. Last night as I was going through pictures in my phone just from this year. My mind begin to race, each picture I looked at I took a mental trip back to that day. On most days I had a lot going on mentally as we'll as emotionally. From February up until now I saw the fluctuation in my weight. I had no self control and one of my biggest problems is not being able to control a situation or being able to fix a situation and in that I didn't recognize I had given the power I had, over to an addiction and if I wasn't careful I would eventually create problems that I couldn't recover from. A person given to appetite has little or no willpower to resist his excessive cravings. I know first hand. I have a very close love one who I love with all my heart struggling with an addiction to alcohol and it saddens me because each day I am watching him deteriorate, and its because of his addiction I recognized my addiction. I refuse to go through my life lacking self control. I refuse to give my life over to any form of addiction. I am determined to gain all control back over my life, but with addictions you can't do it alone. I established a prayer life I put God before this journey and every morning and night I thank him for giving me the courage and the strength to defeat this demon I was battling with, but I had to first want deliverance.
Make up and trendy clothing can only camouflage your addictions for so long, after a while your intake begins to take full control and you're lost inside a world that has very few exit doors...
Peace and blessings until we talk again
-Robin LaShelle
